The use of marijuana. Does one #SmokeWeed ?
Updated: Dec 10, 2021
As I grow into my adult life and I experience isolation, misunderstandings and complications; I also experience the joy of God, true friendship and happiness. This life has made me fall to my knees in prayer and also with feelings of lightness, I have flown across the planet with the home I carry on my back.
My mother planned out my life and marijuana was not a part of the journey. She tried some with me while on vacation and was navigating the experience to be one that is not a good one. And that's what I find with drugs and alcohol... The human can navigate the experience to be one that isn't pleasant or one that is pleasant. It's about being in power and knowing what to do with that influence.
Marijuana has always been a social experience that has brought me closer to God. I remember to breathe deeply, to notice how the sun rays reflect on different atmospheric layers, to listen to the birds. Marijuana has never made me feel suicidal or low. It has always elevated me in ways that aligns with my purpose.
Now, I can recognize people who have a distaste for all types of drugs and alcohol, and I respect those that reframe from use. I have gone through long periods without using before and find new clarity within that journey. But, it is important to take notice that, no matter your reasoning or science people will do what they feel is best for them. I am someone who does not smoke on a regular basis, but will enjoy a blunt when I wish too. And have no problem with people who smoke on a regular basis. As long as you are still contributing to society and playing a part in human kind there shouldn't be a problem.
Marijuana is not magic, it doesn't just make you heal from your past trauma. Therapy does that, but as I embark on these therapeutic journeys I find that you have to be willing to conform to single narrative, that you have to have a lot of money and that you have to be sober.
My trauma comes from having a sickly brother growing up with a single mother. Things were tight and I had to compromise a lot of my personality for the emergency of the day. My trauma therapists told me who to blame, and I placed blame on my mother, father, brother, neighbor.
It is known that experienced trauma and use of drugs go hand in hand. So this can become a very slippery slope, especially if you are using drugs that may very much put you in the grave. For those people, I believe doing what you can to stay sober should be the goal. But if you could use marijuana, the fastest selling product in the United States of America since it became legal, to cope than you aren't harming anyone.
My mother does this thing, where she pretends to care about things, but mostly doesn't want to take responsibility for her thoughts and actions. It's easy to point to a person and say I don't like the way you are living your life, because you can live your life like me. This type of mentality is the poison of the devil, if we truly lived through God than manipulation and slyness wouldn't be apart of our relationship.
I smoke weed, I can stop when I want and smoke when I want. I just recently spent three months in Florida where I was sober. I embarked on this trauma therapy and found that it opened up old wounds more than it actually solved or healed any of my relationships. But I was doing what my mother wanted me to do, so I was in her good graces.
And that's the point, people want you to do what they do, without cause or reason. They want you to laugh the way they do at their jokes and care about the things that you care about. But what if we challenged ourselves to accept people for what makes us difference and hold space that challenges a single narrative. Opinions matter, but they are just opinions. The science on this matters, but it comes from a system of white supremacy medicine. The fact is that people are going to do what they want to do.